tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36859452011-04-21T15:28:19.765-07:00catch a falling starwishes, dreams, rants, and raves of a nineteen year old.cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comBlogger691100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-1068773102922551982003-11-13T17:21:00.000-08:002003-11-13T17:25:31.043-08:00lumipat na ako ng bahay!
blogger has been my home for a year and a few months.. but i found a new home. i moved to www.tabulas.com/~sadomasochist.
i'll forever love blogger, but we all have to move on to greater things. i'll try to figure out if i can move all my stuff here to tabulas.. hehe.cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-1068391665909966882003-11-09T07:27:00.000-08:002003-11-09T07:28:08.140-08:00havent really had the time to write anymore.. the sembreak went by in a flash. i didn't even feel it cos i was in school most of the time for footloose rehearsals.. im assistant prod manager and costume mistress. more like gene's minion actually. im not complaining though. i like my work.
on the relationship front, paulo and i have been okay so far. kanina lang we fought. it all started sa cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-1066981794238192792003-10-24T00:49:00.000-07:002003-10-24T00:49:54.950-07:00wahoo! kuya jr and louie pitched in to get us this laptop im using right now. it's a dell inspiron 5100. nothing too flashy or super techie, but it's real nice. bebe and i share this. pero she's not home kaya im hogging it muna. heheh. la lang. im just so hapi to have our own small comfuter. hehe.
pau and i are in great terms now. after a super long talk thursday early morning.. saya cos parang cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-1065855480211501682003-10-10T23:57:00.000-07:002003-10-10T23:58:00.396-07:00hay. finals week na. help me god.cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-1064541693139516032003-09-25T18:58:00.000-07:002003-09-25T19:01:33.323-07:00i am officially a friendster addict. demmit! eleanor got me started, and now i can't stop! haha. ohwel.
today i've finally decided to revert back to my old self. for months i have been trying to be someone i was not, believing that it will make a better person out of me. but my stubborn, foolish pride cannot take it anymore. im actually sorry for paulo that she got me as a girlfriend. im slowly cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-1064218932367915862003-09-22T01:22:00.000-07:002003-09-22T01:22:12.333-07:00volleyball season has ended. 4-10. not bad. we raised our standing a notch higher from last year, though i think we could have gotten 5th if we just worked our asses a lil bit more. im seriously thinking of quitting next year. it all depends though.
dilemma! im thinking of bringing pau to sonya's garden to sort of celebrate our fourth month together, but i don't know if he'll be up for it. it'scathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-1062142710449344692003-08-29T00:38:00.000-07:002003-08-29T00:38:30.440-07:00three months today.
i wonder how we were able to pull it off. there were petty fights, trust issues, even jealousy.. but through it all we sort of always knew that we will rise above it and continue to love each other. we weren't unscathed, but we learned as we grew together.
as with every major decision, there were things that we lost and gained when we decided to be together. there was cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-1060848094098053392003-08-14T01:01:00.000-07:002003-08-14T01:06:12.640-07:00it is in the mere glances of you
that i become alive
lately i find myself gasping for air
like a fish left out in the dry.
a four liner i wrote in one of my SA21 classes last year. sort of how im feeling now, with paulo not around as often as i would want to.cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-1060741165958365422003-08-12T19:19:00.000-07:002003-08-12T19:19:25.926-07:00tuesday is my favorite day. well at least for this sem. i get to bring the car, there's no training, and i get off school at 1:30. but sometimes i hate tuesdays when things don't work out the way i planned them to be. ohwell, i don't wanna dwell on that.
yesterday afternoon, rodney, bebe, and i were hanging out in tita fe's room. rodney was supposed to be studying for his exams but we ended up cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-1059701634604722752003-07-31T18:33:00.000-07:002003-07-31T18:36:47.996-07:00i just hate losing.
wednesday was the day to win. and we thought we had it, until we all fucked ourselves up again. first two sets we won by a 10 point margin. god. and everybody is to blame. especially coach lou. we needed that win to believe we can. im just sick and tired of going home and losing. sick of everybody asking whether we won or not and always wanting to just disappear than to say cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-1058493619958499632003-07-17T19:00:00.000-07:002003-07-17T19:00:19.766-07:00friday im in love.
maybe not. heheh. its friday, and the 80s song is playing in my head. weird. reminds me of andrew ty and com11 where you just sit in class to be entertained by his stories and happy tuesday memories. it's 945 and i have a quiz in theo in less than an hour. cool.
randy asked me to lunch yesterday. he just sent me an SMS asking me where i was and if i wanted to have lunch. he cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-1058145742409288412003-07-13T18:22:00.000-07:002003-07-14T01:39:44.773-07:00hey. monday today.
talked to ted lastnight. as usual, paulo slept early so i wasn't able to talk to him when we got home from eating out. shempre, sino pa ba ang pag-uusapan namin ni ted, edi shempre yung wala. so we got to talk about me and pau.
weird, pero a lot of my friends seem not contented with paulo. i mean, parang feeling nila, i deserve better. not that pau is not a good catch, we cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-1057631063539256392003-07-07T19:24:00.000-07:002003-07-07T19:24:23.520-07:00paranoia.
father dacanay always emphasized in class that we should not lose sight of the bigger picture.
i guess i sort of lost sight of it, and now i am paying for my carelessness.
one more chance, please God?
sometimes we focus too much on something that we forget what we lose if we neglect to look at the big picture.
just one chance, i swear i'll make it right this time.cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-1057030617140835962003-06-30T20:36:00.000-07:002003-06-30T20:36:57.063-07:00goodness gracious great balls of fire. i just finished my marketing paper. i had to skip CS30 just to finish it. i feel bad that i cut CS cos it's five units, but i had no choice. Paper or no paper? shempre paper. i enjoyed writing the marketing paper though. didn't think i had it in me.. marketing bola stuff. now i'm sort of rethinking if i should take the marketing track.
yesterday and the daycathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-1056678557228819652003-06-26T18:49:00.000-07:002003-06-26T18:49:17.223-07:00naks. first blog for june! kaso lang matatapos na rin ang june. i was going through my past blogs and found how weird and funny my life has been for the last 10 months. what's even more weird is i found that i wrote a poem about paulo carmino pala before, para sa aking bulalakaw. hehehe if he knew about that, matatawa siguro yun. or mafaflatter. ohwell.
there's nothing much going on right now, cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-941900942003-05-12T00:13:00.000-07:002003-05-12T00:13:59.163-07:00naks, nakablog ako ulit agad.
at shempre, paulo crap na naman. sobrang bad trip talaga kagabi, napuyat kami sa kakadiskusyon. bwisit talaga. e pano kasi etong si paulo carmino eh nag-aalabida na naman. basta walang kamatayan na tintin issues na naman. nakakapikon na talaga, sobra. sabi ni pau, nag-apologize chuchu na raw si tintin at sinabing she won't do anything to destroy us. ulul! sinong cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-940381362003-05-08T23:43:00.000-07:002003-05-08T23:43:51.660-07:00paulo issues, again. for the nth time, im thinking of leaving everything behind. the stuff me and pau share i mean. ang labo nga kasi parang ano bang iiwanan ko? e wala naman kaming clear cut usapan about anything at all. except that we'll be exclusive, na feeling ko hindi naman. at ang pinakanakakainis pa sa lahat ay ang nangungulit sa kanya na si tintin! ang mas nakakaburat, ineentertain naman cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-929718072003-04-21T00:42:00.000-07:002003-04-21T00:42:01.513-07:00can i just say that i love paulo carmino? cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-929713572003-04-21T00:26:00.000-07:002003-04-21T00:26:21.576-07:00april 21! ohmigod. it's been weeks. well, blame it on our computer. the cpu is still with kuya Glenn, who at the moment is dead busy with work. i actually am writing this blog in megabox. dang. training will start in an hour pa so what else to do than check mails and blog. heheh. exciting ng buhay ko no? ohwell.
i miss paulo. he's out there somewhere, and he's picking me up from training later. cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-919575912003-04-03T19:43:00.000-08:002003-05-12T00:24:21.000-07:00oh my god. it's been what, six weeks? grabe it's been so long since i last blogged. the whole of february and march, i was juggling papers, long tests, volleyball practice, daniw classes, family, driving, and paulo. in no particular order yan ha. grabe, the weeks sped by because of so much stuff to do. here's a recap:
school - finished about 6 papers for different subjects, got exempted for histocathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-893019922003-02-18T04:49:00.000-08:002003-02-18T04:49:16.230-08:00i haven't been blogging for like two weeks.. means i haven't been totally pissed or totally ecstatic for the last fourteen days. valentine's was okay. i spent two hours of it in driving lessons. woohoo! finally. i drove home from marikina, would you believe. tomorrow i'll drive from ateneo pauwi. yay! excited na ko.
paulo mercado passed the seven day test. he's still around, after two weeks. cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-884181772003-02-02T03:22:00.000-08:002003-02-18T04:59:37.000-08:00she comes and she goes like no one can
always buzzing just like neon, neon
who knows how long she can go before she burns away
-john mayer, neon
he's at it again, buzzing for the nth time. yup, paulo mercado is at it again. well, must have been my fault. i called him wednesday night to say hi. actually i was looking for someone tocathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-875404472003-01-16T08:59:00.000-08:002003-01-16T08:59:42.910-08:00i texted randy the other day. aisa was looking for a tennis instructor/coach and i thought randy would proly know someone if he didn't want the job. well he did, and he got two new students starting monday. naks naman, i became my m-o-f's agent for the day.
he said we'll go to lunch one time on a THURSDAY when he has class in ateneo.
what is it with Thursdays and guys?
hay ewan. the eternal cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-875373142003-01-16T07:51:00.000-08:002003-01-16T07:58:30.000-08:00i'm reading alain de botton's novel essays in love and i'm totally raving about it. (this is like the fifth time that i said that today.)
i now have a definition for my love disease, courtesy of the book. using de botton's definitions and example, i am indeed a Marxist when it comes to love. naah, not the communist thingy. Marx was most popular for that, but he sure did have other things to talkcathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-871129872003-01-08T06:33:00.000-08:002003-01-16T07:54:56.000-08:00ang sakit ng ngipin ko.
nagpafish ako kay gee. sabi daw ni chel, "maganda, pwede... pero not my type."
ohwel, his loss. hahaha.
sakit talaga ng ngipin ko.cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-867026452002-12-30T08:57:00.000-08:002002-12-30T08:57:00.500-08:00it's way past midnight again. and yes, im the only person awake in this house. but it feels like that everyday. im moving in a different mindset, a different world with a different set of truths, rights and wrong. you can fool yourself and think that it merits you pride and power but at the end of the day you just want to be the fool that feels.
i, thinking i know almost everything there is to cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-863243782002-12-20T08:57:00.000-08:002002-12-30T09:01:52.000-08:00its a little past 1am, four more days to go before Christmas.
all i feel is alone. inside, i know i enjoy being alone. but i think i have been too engrossed in building a world of my own. now that i want to get out and drive out to finally live, it seems like i am travelling on a flat tire, if not a busted engine. last semester, i knew where my time was going, what i was doing. from balancing cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-862090602002-12-17T23:46:00.000-08:002002-12-20T08:47:03.000-08:00just one more longtest to prepare for, and i'm off to christmas break mode. dang information society.
lantern parade in UP today. but i have training till 7pm so i can't watch. sayang.
i got to rendezvous with my sll last sunday. way past 3am. we drove around. naks my scooter boy is now a driver. hahaha. basta. it was somethin for the record. hahaha. it's prolly gonna be the last time we'll cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-856306842002-12-06T23:20:00.000-08:002002-12-06T23:20:27.476-08:00i miss falling in love.cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-856302712002-12-06T23:04:00.000-08:002002-12-06T23:13:32.000-08:00kanina lang hawak ka.
marahang hinahaplos
ang bawat ipit na ugat
sa iyong payat na katawan.
pinagmamasdan ang kabuuang
libong beses ko mang
hawakan, haplusin at
palihim na amuyin
di pa rin tuluyang maangkin.
kanina lang hawak ka.
tangan ang pangarap
na ngayo'y tangan niya.
here's another. mejo patawa lang to.
nagtext ako kagabi.
di ka naman nagreply.
tumawag ako, pero
mukhang nakapatay.
cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-855741272002-12-05T19:55:00.000-08:002002-12-05T19:55:20.446-08:00it's christmas! well, 20 more days till christmas pala. i can feel the christmas breeze na. sigh.
i watched the paolo santos concert lastnight with elga and cha. man, was he good! galing sobra. then i invited him to watch into the woods and he said that he will, on the 13th or 14th. yay!
i wrote five poems the other day. three while bumming in the rmt and the other two were in class. i'll post cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-849719162002-11-23T08:21:00.000-08:002002-11-23T08:21:24.220-08:00after more than a month of absence, our cpu is back. oh yes it is. feels good to surf without having to line up or pay.
into the woods is opening in a week. damn, i'm excited and nervous at the same time. first musical with bluerep. hopefully next time i'll be cast. heheh.
i saw randy last monday. i was looking at the dumaguete pictures again and pointed him out to elga. when we turned to walk,cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-841655722002-11-07T02:54:00.000-08:002002-11-07T02:54:10.356-08:00haha i finally got the courage to ask tita when will i be allowed to go on dates.
"baket, hindi ba nagdadate ka na?"
oops... not the answer i expected. i couldn't help but laugh. anyway after all of the hullaballoo and forever warnings on safety, she agreed. yes! hehehe. wait, no one's asking me out at the moment. shit.
i miss my lujuria amante. there were dumaguete pics in the athletics boardcathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-835837262002-10-26T23:30:00.000-07:002002-10-26T23:30:07.590-07:00i had to inhale the polluted air to finally accept that indeed, i am back in manila.
dumaguete was a blast. it wasn't anything like bacolod. it's more laid back, more of rest and drinking till dawn. the resort had a pool, and we were waterbabies for almost a week. i never thought i have loved water as much. wynne and kay kept me laughing and helped me find my true jologs palengkera self. i'm cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-830953902002-10-16T19:23:00.000-07:002002-10-16T19:24:15.000-07:00heeha! finals are almost over.. im still thinking of taking the eco finals.. no bearing naman daw eh. i still wanna get a grade higher. i only need .2 to get a B+. man, it sucks.. ohwell, at least i got exempted.
i got a reaction from one of the members of the kulit_ph egroups about my poem para sa aking bulalakaw. here it is:
"well, after reading lots of Filipino poems for my paper, i really cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-827169792002-10-08T18:32:00.000-07:002002-10-08T18:32:26.846-07:00oh, and did i mention that i talked to the fil dept chair na? shet! she was so kind and motherly. i'm going to minor in filipino literature na! finally, something that i really want to do. to save me from all of the taxing but boring management and it subjects that i need to take. it may be extra load, but i know i'll be happy doing it.
ang saya ko nga everytime makasalubong ko si sir moscaya. cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-827164772002-10-08T18:22:00.000-07:002002-10-08T18:22:20.460-07:00im back! i should be studying for law recitations later, but i guess i missed blogging.
life can be oh so busy sometimes that you forget what gives you happiness or peace. for the past few weeks i've been a drifter. doing what has to be done because it has to be done. no passion, no quirks, no reklamos. oh well, one more week to go and i'll be away from all of this school stuff. three glorious cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-817221652002-09-17T07:00:00.000-07:002002-09-17T07:00:13.126-07:00burn out. haven't slept for the last 24+ hours. gimme some sleeping pills.cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-816315162002-09-15T08:30:00.000-07:002002-09-15T08:30:52.106-07:00i spent friday night at starbuck's timog. alone. astig. i felt real good, being alone in a place i knew nobody.
friday i'm in love. 5pm, colayco lobby. enter, fiddler's green. zoom in to mike benedicto, singing back to you. destiny. wait, im floating.
9pm, law class. dismissal. was taken aback by the words in my arm chair. MIKE IS GOD! shet. destiny. im floating, faraway.
oh, and can i just cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-815067652002-09-12T07:26:00.000-07:002002-09-15T08:33:30.000-07:00pakshet talaga yang si pm. neon talaga, sabi nga ni john mayer. di ba na naman nagtext ng 1 and a half days! tapos nagtext kanina. hmpf! di nga ako nagtext back. asa siya. pero wag ka, kanina ko pa gustong-gustong magtext. hmm... antayin ko muna siyang mag-gudnyt. shet pakipot ka pa. tae. o eto. crap.
para sa aking bulalakaw
malapit nang humalik ang araw
sa walang hanggang pisngi ng karagatan.
cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-813569762002-09-09T07:44:00.000-07:002003-02-18T05:42:41.000-08:00hay. it's raining men, alleluia. ang weird talaga ng buhay noh? kung minsan walang-wala ka. kung minsan naman sasakit ang ulo sa dami ng pagpipilian. sige na, feeling na. e totoo naman. hahahaha.
okay sana si john-c kaya lang, parang me kulang. ah alam ko na, oo yun nga. tsk tsk. napag-usapan pa naman namin ni bebe na yun ang ultimate turn off namin sa guys. hay. di naman sa ano, pero feeling kocathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-812820682002-09-07T10:00:00.000-07:002002-09-07T10:07:34.000-07:00all alone on a saturday evening.. or should i say sunday early, early morning? bebe's still not home from gimik and i'm typing my eco notes. nope, i'm not feeling particularly industrious. just bored, bored out of my mind. i watched two and a half movies, read a magazine, cleaned my aquariums, went to the grocery, and bummed around all day. what am i doing here all alone?
enter john mayer, cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-812351672002-09-06T06:48:00.000-07:002002-09-06T06:48:48.450-07:00had a date with nikki and yoyo today. as usual, we ate sa casaa. pakshet na ulan yan, ang lakas.
i met john-c na.. yung sineset-up saken ni tintin. he's got super nice eyes and he's tall. feeling ko type ni ia eh. hahaha.
shet, pakshet. me sakit na naman yung isa kong isda. at hindi yung maliit ha, yung cichlid na malaki. huhuhu me namatay na nga kahapon, mukhang mamamatay na rin yun bukas. cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-811895952002-09-05T07:47:00.000-07:002002-09-05T07:51:26.000-07:00ilang araw na rin akong hindi nakadalaw. ang dami kasing ginagawa. hay, palusot. pero ang totoo, wala lang talaga akong masulat. pakshet na buhay to. (hahaha..nanood kasi ako ng jologs kanina. nahawa kay assunta sa pakshet niya.)
pero talaga, pakshet na buhay to. gusto kong mag-minor sa fil lit pero pakshet di ako maka-decide ng mabuti. gusto ko sa gusto. pero baka hindi ko kayanin. o baka cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-810336172002-09-02T08:48:00.000-07:002002-09-02T08:57:19.000-07:00nyaks.. score ako sa crush ko nung sunday! hahaha.. basta, saya. ano ba to. is my life getting so boring that i amuse myself of such babaw things? heheh
i got in the prod staff of into the woods! assistant stage manager for props. o diba? heheh also, i got the requirements for the minoring thing. ima talk it over with tita and the peeps in the states muna. i'm really interested. excited even.
cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-809240722002-08-30T10:16:00.000-07:002002-09-05T07:48:42.000-07:00nope, i didn't sing. i chose to play volleyball than sing dun sa open mic. little knocks of regret.
im planning to minor in fil lit. i texted sir jomz and he told me to drop by the dep next week. looking forward to that.
boylets galore! man.. last week i was ranting of no sign of a future love interest at all. today, i got three. hahaha. i have one for sunday, one for tuesday, and paulo cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-808066682002-08-27T20:14:00.000-07:002002-08-27T20:14:28.203-07:00talk about a good morning.. paulo mercado, of all people, texted me good morning and wished a nice day ahead. life can be so... uhm.. delicious? hehehecathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-808065432002-08-27T20:11:00.000-07:002002-08-30T10:42:05.000-07:00haven't been blogging lately. man, im just glad that the accounting longtest is over. im feeling good about it. hope the results are as good. now that i don't have anything to study for, life seems so boring. i need to get back and sharpen my stalking skills. or catch up with the SA readings. oh shit, long test on monday! dang!
sumthing yoyo wrote:
won't it be easier if broken hearts were as cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-805668512002-08-22T06:25:00.000-07:002002-08-22T06:33:46.000-07:00i got so pissed at the finance and accounting secretary kanina. i was following up my missing test paper and she was so masungit. what pissed me was when she asked "sigurado ka bang ipinasa mo?" the hell, why will i look for it if i didn't? she was implying that i cheated and did not pass the stupid answer sheet. di nga niya alam kung gaano ko pinaghirapan sagutan yung mga yun, tapos mawawala pa cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-805132762002-08-21T00:39:00.000-07:002002-08-21T00:39:21.206-07:00i need to find a copy of pablo neruda's ode to a secret love... fast!
he emailed me. after so many weeks, he got in touch.
oh and badgie and i texted the other night. he said he'll see me ON a thursday. now i'm looking forward to every thursday of every week, even if i know that it could all be just talk.
.. and i saw him yesterday. he had a haircut. cute.cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-803896172002-08-18T07:06:00.000-07:002002-08-18T07:08:40.000-07:00i know there is a rainbow
for me to follow
to get beyond my sorrow
thunder precedes the sunlight
so i'll be alright
if i could find
that rainbow's end
i would be alright
if i could find
that rainbow's end
i'm really thinking of actually making my dream come true and sing at the open mic next week. this song might be it.cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-803875202002-08-18T04:47:00.000-07:002002-08-18T04:47:20.106-07:00heyheyhey! we won over NU!
and i played three sets! mwehehehe.. funny kse i keep on making points na hindi naman sadya.. sobrang swerte lang talaga. funny kase they were teasing me na player of the game. mwahaha.. kahit na alam kong joke lang yun, it felt good na mabola. we all played a good game. napansin lang siguro ako kasi nun lang ako ginamit ng matagal. hehehe.
oh, i had my hair colored cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-803201192002-08-16T07:51:00.000-07:002002-08-16T07:57:41.000-07:00guess who i saw about an hour ago...
precious.
she was outside jollibee, selling sampaguita. seeing her brought back my amoy bata memories last blue christmas. i felt sad that she had to walk around katipunan avenue everyday and sell sampaguita to passersby when she should be at home or in school.
as we drove away, i was teary-eyed. i saw how blessed i was. and i remembered the most touching cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-802306182002-08-14T06:57:00.000-07:002002-08-15T05:58:43.000-07:00fred's acting up. i think it was because of a wrong text message i accidentally sent him last night.
suko na ko. i don't really know how to handle him anymore. one minute, we're okay as friends tapos biglang hindi na naman. i don't know how to tell him to stop expecting anything. i can't say what will happen in the future and i might eat my words one day, pero right now and for the near future, cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-802298132002-08-14T06:32:00.000-07:002002-08-14T06:32:20.400-07:00my eyes were closed but i couldn't sleep last night so i was making dialogues in my head. i was saying things i wish i could say but could not, imagining that i was really talking to someone. then something lit up. so i opened my eyes and saw that there was a yellow light behind the tv. i stared at it for five seconds, totally bewildered.
and then i decided to get up and see what it was. when i cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-801815762002-08-13T05:21:00.000-07:002002-08-13T05:23:22.000-07:00i had a massage today.
felt good being almost naked and rubbed in the right places.
i'm 450 bucks poorer, but it was all worth it.
now if i can only find a guy who will do it for free... *wink*
oh, he must be good-looking too.
..the guy who complimented me on my hair yesterday would be a shoo-in.cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-801289532002-08-12T00:21:00.000-07:002002-08-12T00:27:31.000-07:00my life seems to fall apart.
i've always thought that my life was perfect. that i have everything i could ask for. and somehow, there's some truth to it. but lately, rather than focus on the designs and accents, i've been seeing the cracks and nicks of my life. it wasn't so perfect after all.
i've taken lots of things for granted, i have come to realize. and have neglected those who are very cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-800933442002-08-11T00:53:00.000-07:002002-08-11T00:53:33.593-07:00i went to the debut last night. i saw my high school barkada and got to exchange conversations and news. most have boyfriends at the moment. and there were just about 2 or 3 of us that didn't have at least a prospect. weird.
on my way home, i realized that i missed them. the last time i saw them before tonight was i think during ana's debut two months ago. and i realized that my relationship cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-800930612002-08-11T00:38:00.000-07:002002-08-11T00:43:46.000-07:00i played today. one whole set. i tried what i could.
coach said "try harder."
i'm excited for tomorrow's practice.
as coach said, prove that your worth the playing time you're asking. my whole heart is willing. and i'm hell bent on doing that.
oh, the blue babble batallion was there, drums and all. and for the first time, we sang the ateneo song after the game.
win or lose it's the school cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-800632802002-08-10T04:05:00.000-07:002002-08-10T04:05:28.746-07:00my friend texted me last night and said that "the guy" pissed her so badly... and now i'm thinking twice about having the biggest crush on him. i want my guy to be friends with my friends. as if he is my guy. *sigh*
it's been a long saturday, me doing review papers for my brother and watching ateneo lose to la salle on tv. i'm off to my high school bestfriend's debut. but i'm really tired and cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-800091272002-08-08T19:52:00.000-07:002002-08-10T03:59:56.000-07:00i found this in my yahoo account's sent folders. whinings from about a year ago.
...everyday he goes home and sleep, unaffected and clueless of how i feel about him. this is so much harder than wanting somebody you can't have because he's taken. he's there, no strings attached. all he has to do is look at me and see me. see me the way i want him to see me.. look at me and not just see another cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-800080092002-08-08T19:20:00.000-07:002002-08-08T19:38:08.000-07:00now i'm thinking. should i tell him i miss him? nah. too forward.
why is his name in code? for safety purposes. i don't wanna ruin this one that early.
yup, another conquest. but this one has the killer smile. and the most probability of a future.
i think i'd die if anyone knows who he is. i'd die even more if anyone knows about this.cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-800067192002-08-08T18:44:00.000-07:002002-08-08T19:26:34.000-07:00i'm was going to leave for the states. for some reason, the plane i took landed in baguio and i'm supposed to catch an Ilocos-bound bus to get to the airport there for my US flight. the bus will be coming in more or less an hour so i decided to check out the area. surprise of all suprises, i see cherub while i was on my way to a cafe. she has this weird smile on her face and was holding a yellow cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-799819002002-08-08T07:15:00.000-07:002002-08-08T07:15:29.090-07:00juven called. boses pagod daw ako. nakakapanibago raw. parang hindi ako.
sabay naisip ko, pagod na nga yata ako sa mga nangyayari sa buhay ko. parang araw-araw parehas lang. wala nang surprise, walang spontaneous activity. lagi na lang class-caf-lib-class-training. wala nang bagong nangyayari.
ang baduy na nang buhay ko. parang nagiging katulad ng mga buhay na iniilingan ko lang dati.
cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-799816442002-08-08T07:07:00.000-07:002002-08-08T19:36:09.000-07:00average day. nothing much happened. nothing to be ecstatic or depressed about.
oh, we lost our game to UST today. straight sets. and yeah, i played. i got to touch the ball for the first time this season. once.
right after the game i went to coach lou and told him i had to leave for spanish class. he held my hand, looked at me with sad eyes and said, "sa la salle, promise."
i just smiled back cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-799382552002-08-07T07:57:00.000-07:002002-08-07T07:57:49.176-07:00i was really masungit to ia today.
and i felt guilty so i texted her. i said that i was sorry and told her that i was unhappy with volleyball.
and she said she feels exactly the same. and you know what else she said?
we can't quit now. let's just finish this year. if you still feel the same way, go where you're happy. sing pore.
i wish it was that easy. cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-799375742002-08-07T07:39:00.000-07:002002-08-07T07:51:39.000-07:00i have just finished a quarter gallon of magnolia's cookies and cream. i don't even like the flavor. goes to show i'm overly depressed. i had training today, and much to my dismay, i didn't do well on my spiking. unlike monday. monday was the best. i hit every set, and they landed great. but today, i was back to the old me. i couldn't hit it the way i wanted to. in my mind i was kind of blaming cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-798930462002-08-06T08:09:00.000-07:002002-08-06T08:09:17.090-07:00why catch a falling star? man, i don't know. i was reading a book by cristina pantoja-hidaldgo with the same title while i was making this blogger account.. and i couldn't think of anything so there, i used it. it's a good book, by the way.
what exactly is a blogspot for? i don't know.
but i know that his smile sent me smiling through accounting class. his smile more than makes up for his cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3685945.post-798728042002-08-05T20:00:00.000-07:002002-08-05T20:00:16.790-07:00catch a falling star and put it in your pocket
never let it fade away...
catch a falling star and put it in your pocket
save it for a rainy day...
cathyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571303786626908121noreply@blogger.com