lumipat na ako ng bahay!

blogger has been my home for a year and a few months.. but i found a new home. i moved to www.tabulas.com/~sadomasochist.

i'll forever love blogger, but we all have to move on to greater things. i'll try to figure out if i can move all my stuff here to tabulas.. hehe.

havent really had the time to write anymore.. the sembreak went by in a flash. i didn't even feel it cos i was in school most of the time for footloose rehearsals.. im assistant prod manager and costume mistress. more like gene's minion actually. im not complaining though. i like my work.

on the relationship front, paulo and i have been okay so far. kanina lang we fought. it all started sa friendster. i thought he got mad because of it, yun pala me bigger issue pala. he said that lately, he feels na parang i'm implying that he's not good enough or im too good for him through my hirits. after a continuous exchange of texts with stuff that we ended up regretting, we were able to talk. for the first time he was able to get his point across. he expressed all of his concerns and he was able to say stuff that he would usually just forget about. it was a long talk. nakakainis, nakakaiyak, and confusing at times, pero it was one of the best conversations because we were listening at each other. it was give and take.

he said, hindi na talaga natin mababalik yung dati no. yung mga kilig moments. pero okay lang, kase we are on another level. and it's so much better. i couldn't agree more. we are growing. together.

wahoo! kuya jr and louie pitched in to get us this laptop im using right now. it's a dell inspiron 5100. nothing too flashy or super techie, but it's real nice. bebe and i share this. pero she's not home kaya im hogging it muna. heheh. la lang. im just so hapi to have our own small comfuter. hehe.

pau and i are in great terms now. after a super long talk thursday early morning.. saya cos parang we're starting ulit.

shout outs: thanks to my kuya jr and kuya louie for this wonderful laptop! heheh. mwah! love you guys!

hay. finals week na. help me god.

i am officially a friendster addict. demmit! eleanor got me started, and now i can't stop! haha. ohwel.

today i've finally decided to revert back to my old self. for months i have been trying to be someone i was not, believing that it will make a better person out of me. but my stubborn, foolish pride cannot take it anymore. im actually sorry for paulo that she got me as a girlfriend. im slowly reverting back to my biatch self again.

oh god help us.

volleyball season has ended. 4-10. not bad. we raised our standing a notch higher from last year, though i think we could have gotten 5th if we just worked our asses a lil bit more. im seriously thinking of quitting next year. it all depends though.

dilemma! im thinking of bringing pau to sonya's garden to sort of celebrate our fourth month together, but i don't know if he'll be up for it. it's still a two-hour drive from here so im thinking twice about it. maybe next month. or when i get a car and won't have to depend on him for the ride.

how about a box of yellow cab pizza and sunset at the fort? haynako. whatever. i just hope it doesn't rain.

three months today.

i wonder how we were able to pull it off. there were petty fights, trust issues, even jealousy.. but through it all we sort of always knew that we will rise above it and continue to love each other. we weren't unscathed, but we learned as we grew together.

as with every major decision, there were things that we lost and gained when we decided to be together. there was inspiration and despair. happiness and tears. through it all, we were together. and i pray that we will be, for as long as God wills it.

love never felt this good. :)